Mystic Dessert

My life is fucked up

珍宝猪 — Fri, 07 Oct 2005 05:23:15 +0000

Every day I get awake at around 9am-10am. Thereafter it goes like halfway fucked-up halfway positive, as a so-called “brand new” day constantly shows up dropping on me. And this is my everyday LIFE. So life, what is this meant to be? Time is passing quietly fast, which for me is too cruel, too relentless. I am positive at times – look for ways to calm down and cheer up; look for reasons to carry on even though it’s been desperate already. Yes, isn’t that vital to find one’s own REASONS to carry on a life for there’s so many things need to be done? I know it though these positive times wouldn’t last too long just because it takes too much TIME. And yeah, it can be a curse that we lead a life which is running on a track called “time”.

It won’t stop, which means life won’t stop to wait one to be totally awake, to be definitely clear up, so that all goals are achieved. I hate the word DEADLINE. Not until I get to realize it’s gone, it is gone. Time, time is gone. It stops who it wants. It never lasts. Isn’t my life fucked up? My routine is to solve out emotional breakdowns and then break down again. What a dead loop.

One song goes: The past is as if firework, the future is as if sands. What else ain’t gonna leave behind? Then the other song goes: Don’t hold on, go get strong.

Arrrrrrrrrrrgh……!!!

Deadlines, they all expire. This is my life!!!

what the fuck is TONGHUA?

珍宝猪 — Thu, 08 Sep 2005 09:26:42 +0000

光良的< 童话>, gay声音,肉麻歌词, 异常普通的旋律
why the fuck一个大人都爱听?! why?!

我现在有两个bullshit blog. 一个黑色,一个白色. 这里就是白色的那个了.

–_–

i’m totally fucked up

珍宝猪 — Thu, 08 Sep 2005 09:21:58 +0000

Shit! I-JUST-WANNA-FUCK-MYSELF-OFF!!!!!!! I-AM—-SUCH A———————L O S E R!!!!!!!!!!

Mysterious leaving

珍宝猪 — Wed, 22 Jun 2005 03:11:51 +0000

Well, i’ll be away for a while.

Exams are over, holiday starts? (moaning doubtfully..) Actually a month ago i started to listen to some Cantonese pop songs more often per day–in order to foster some kinda familiar feeling about life ambient that i used to live in..I know i’m silly :p however sometimes it’s really that hard to recall something in distance……WHATEVER. Guangzhou is such a noisy city (in contrast to Auckland), full of DYNAMICs.

As well, there won’t be much hysteria/insane words fussing around for a few days.

As a matter of fact, i gotta more or less “return to normal” cuz i’ll be living with parents again. It’s kinda happy seeing them around.

Guangzhou, i’m approaching…

Fake dvds, my precious~~

uh..i hate summer though.

没想到啊没想到

珍宝猪 — Mon, 20 Jun 2005 05:02:06 +0000

之前被我在qq签名上叼得狗血淋头的women’s studies老师竟然给我第二篇论文一个高分！！

那又是一篇迟交一个星期的功课（另外还有202（hollywood and its others)的论文），

而我所喜欢的202的MK先给了个可观的分数，但也毫不留情地扣了8分（迟交8天，一天一分）！！！（总分才30分。）

再次感觉混乱，态度暧昧~~晕乎

For those who don’t see my radio blog

珍宝猪 — Mon, 20 Jun 2005 00:36:53 +0000

昨天把radioblog搞了一搞，放在sidebar里。

我用的是freewebtown.com的免费空间，但国内把它给ban了。

于是我的radioblog在某程度上中看不中用：

Guttony is not a secret vice

珍宝猪 — Sun, 19 Jun 2005 10:49:38 +0000

前天早上奔赴考试途中亲眼目睹传说中踏scooter上班的MK，真tm酷。昨天跟房东清算房租。今天爸妈打电话来说接机事宜。每天都会有一些signal提醒回国的日子逐渐逼近， jf说他上一次回上海是没有人接机－－今日妈妈那种紧张的语气让我突然有不想让人接机的想法。 But也仅仅是想法！

Guttony is not a secret vice–这是Orson Welles说的！！那厮也有暴食症。

这几天又暴食，连扣喉都懒得了！其实我不想减肥！！！

我想自己一个人。

P.S.